entering the unknow paradox

hello everybody ^0^!

Sat, 28 Jun 2008 14:51:47 GMT

long time no read! I know , I know.. I've been a bit busy lately. Well , I doing great. I have my own apartment, which comes with pool facilities at a great price >.< who said you can't have it all. It's really big and the only thing I dont get accustomed to here is all the carpeting.I'm starting to miss puerto rico weather. It's hot here but it's muggy and dusty since we are having a drought. All right, Have i told you i,m in columbus georgia now?

>.< I know I have a tendency to keep moving... But I think I'll be settling here for a while. I got a great job and I find funny I have to maintain my voice like a singer does.I really like my job, I get to help people out and it's a learning experience. I'm a customer service representative for TSYS (Total systems inc.) My job involves redeeming point for prices from credit card companys. And its really interesting. So.... if you have a credit card with rewards program... and since you have internet... use the website. I can't redeem for you, It would mean loosing the gig and I dont plan on loosing the gig. But do check your rewards program out, they have cool stuff.

It's kinda of a meanie job as well for i have internet acces but i can't use it even on the slow days... only for redemption purposes only... but hey you can't have the cake and eat it too. The work enviroment is really friendly and well looks like luck is on my side.I got also an upper hand since i'm bilingual and we barely have spanish representatives.

Other than work, I've become a dull gal, since I'm all work and no play these days. Well, I got to make sure on my own two feet before I can splurge on hanging out. It's not like you can hang for free now a days unless its to the library, which i go to quite often.and FINALLY I have dsl... i can actually talk to peoples now! I had dialup before and was so slow i couldn't even open my email...lol.Well, pardon the spelling errors I'm abit tired to correct them at the time and I will write more often now. I can't write more, for I have duties to attend to aka bills to pay.

Well i hope you all are ok, let me know what is new with you? how is life treating you? what are your plans in these coming days and well all that good stuff so I can catch up with your lifes as well. * offer e-flower* sorry I haven't been keeping in touch better. But I promise I will now :D

Well i hope you have a good day
take care

life down south

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 18:02:57 GMT

Life down south... its very different. All with little boundaries and lots of codes adn upright living stuff. Everywhere is like working on a boot camp. This is sooo not like me. But I'm doing more than ok. Im living in a nice neighborhood. Dont have internet... but its a work in progres XD. I like my job. Im a CSR ( customer service representative). It's not all fun and games though. Its stressful and also has its times where there is nothing to do but you cant do nothing but stare at the screen . My peers are cool. They celebrated my birthday on friday 11 and we had pizza and cup cakes and we had soda and good times. ^-^ and sadly fast times as well for we only have 30min breaks during training.

Its an okay town to settle down in here in Columbus. I do miss the city like feel. I like the metro and fast life feel. I guess i can later look forward to Atlanta or some other metro for further setting down my roots somewhere. Im letting my hair grow out, so it fits better to dress code and its more manageable. O.O and OMG Im dressing like a business woman >.< can you imagine that. Me wearing make-up, eye liner, eye shodow, blush, base , lipstick and lip liner, french manecure i learned to do on myself and fine pluck brows. Those who really know me know that i soooo do not like doing that and barely knew how , but desperate times calls for desperate measures. :P

Not much friends yet, but i keep in touch with my friends from home, Rafa, Yome and chibi. I've been in comunications with my family.. we had had a fight a while back and well, that is water under the bridge now. ON mutual agreement we dont touch the subject and we are back to are usual selves :D. My granma is more likely than not going to come an visit me this summer. I cant really go to my graduation :( but .... its no big deal. Any who... she and maybe some other family will be coming to visit me... who exactly still undetermined.

People say family is always family , right? Well they arent always easy to understand, but they are family and care none the less. And friends are good too, I wish i could make friends in a flash and already have friends . I guess im in patient . Need to learn that. I have been here less than 2 months here and so its not enough time and ive only been working for three weeks so not enough time to get to know people and be friends per say. There is another puerto rican in the Loyalty department. ^-^ that is nice to know ji ji ji. And the weather here is great... Im going a bit paranoid with the tornado warnings being so close to home but so far we are in a place tornados dont fancy :P so we good.

One thing for sure , in P.R. we only worry about storms regurlar rainstroms... in the states there are alot of weather inclemencies to watch out for @_@ can be overwhelming sometimes I imagine.I'm proud of myself. I have been doing good, I have survived many set backs in the last year to two years. Im of excelent health and Im making it. its not easy , maybe not going to be too confortable in the days to come... but one thing is for sure... i will survive. I will move on and carry my head on high. man I got to go.. maybe i ll update more often. Maybe take the habit of documenting my life.....someday someone might see its book worthyness and make it into a book.There are tings i regret, somethings im starting to see where for the best and some im most definetly proud off and wouldnt mind having a book written on int. ji ji ja ja ja ja ja ... like that would ever happen LOL

its been some time...

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 03:51:25 GMT

Its been somtime! ^-^; well i have had a busy semester in college. I passed all my clases. 3 B's and 2 C's and i cant be happier^-^ those were the most worked for grades yet. My family is still being an ass, friends are good as always, a bit more caotic, but hey arent we all. I have found love and have grown so much since my last post. I had to post ,though i dont have much time to, because that last post was kinda a sad post to let it be the last one in a while . I will write more often but, for now that will be all.

mindless ranting from a broken woman

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 17:12:59 GMT

i would not go as far as to say my live sucks. I do believe i have the lousiest luck any one could have. I m still broken up about losing two friends last week, but know i get more shit thrown my way. I am right now in the most self hating moment of my life. I let a man who had hurt me so much in the past, do what he pleased. I did not care for myself. I guess in a way i wanted to commit a slow suicide. Now i'm broken up because i acted the way i did. I feel disgust whith myself and its so fucking hard to look into my friends eyes and not think if they were to know, they would abandon me, they would run away like everyone else in my life, with the exception of my three people until now: my mom, granma and aunt candy. I have one good friend i have told and even though she is not abandoning me , she is disappointed. I betrayed her opinion of me and i let her down. I said i was one thing and ended being completly different. A real hipocrite if you can believe.
I wish i could fall asleep and never wake up. I wish i could let out all i feel inside, but i cant. I feel restricted by a part of me. Its like if i where to let everything out and allow myself to fall into pieces i would have to accept what has happened. But if i dont , i can still deny its effects on my. This somehow seems like what i want to accept, that im not the person whom i have recently shown o be. that all is well and it was a dream or an ilusion.

Holy week sucks

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 16:56:59 GMT

Magaly, not exactly a best friend , but a friend non the less, with some rough patches recently died on my birthday. It hit me like a jack hammer to the stomach. I knew she was sick, and was having complications with her Aids condition.But i did not want to accept the she could die. I evoided talking about it or thinking about it. We had so much to do still.Myabe i was just being childish, naive, ignorant on purpose of what was to come. i'm straight, but i feel so bad that i could not reply her love towards me. She was in love with me and I could not respond. I like men. She knew that, i know that she knew that, and yet i still feel like it just added to the sick yoke that faith had given us both. And to all this i, i tried to celebrate and be happy , cause that is what she would have wanted of me. It feel so unfair, she had been through the wrost things this year that no one female or male should have to go through and still came out strong to be put back down again and die. She was only 21 years old with one more year till she graduated. Also this is a very painful week for my best friend Nani. She lost a dear one, and it was on this week. It's still too recent, and the fact i have had not a loss like hers, makes me feel i cant say anithing to help. I was just there as much as i could. Yet its so sad, and i' very empathetic, i felt pain for her loss as well. I wanted to do something but never got to make her feel better. She did once she went to visit her family, which is very important.

My fathers boss died, and he looked up to him , and now he has inspiring issues. Because as soon he finds someone to inpire him to be better , that person passes away. And the cherry to the sour banana split.... A friend ... a friend that we had gone stranged because he had made a series of mistakes that caused me alot of emotional and physical pain. He was high and drunk and losing slowly his sanity. He committed sucide. He had a lethal dose of drugs unable to cope with magaly's death. I wanted to feel nothing, and i desconected myself. I tried very hard, but know his family blames me for the whole thing. I know grief is a selfish bitch but I cnat let it get to me. I still have to finish my semester and go on living. Yet i feel so much anger, hate , pain, sorrow and a break in my heart that it makes it hard to breath. I still cared for him, and was considering saying "i forgive you*hug* and just get your shit together, i can help if you want".my best friend Iris also wanted to talk to him and tell him many things he needed to hear, but face to face. he would not acceptthis and seeked more and more punishment till he just killed himself . I was like i wont cry i wont morn him. Beause if i do i would have to do his last request and i cant. I have a little trauma with dancing, and he asked to go and dance at least one last time. But im starting to think i just should , because he asked for it. he used to make me feel so beautiful and inteligent and like i belong to someone for the first time.

He showed me talents within myself i did not knew i had. Even though we where intereste in the same sex, we really acted like a couple sometimes. He was indeed a best friend. He cursed himself for something that happened and how he responded, yet the truth is we never know how we'll react to certain events, and that is not to hold grudges over. But pain can be blinding and we both were blinded by it. I need to express this here, where is not easy to lose and it will be here. I'll remeberthem always so as to say their short lives where not meaningless. So they will continue to live , living in my memories. that is the only certainty we have , after this terretial life, lfe in the memories of others. i try to reason this, so it wont hurt as much, but it still does. Ive never lost someone close to me. And now i feel turnmoil. It just so totally SUCKS!

april fools a little late ha ha ha this is hilarious!

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 13:04:13 GMT

April Fool
aoshishinomori	enlists you in the French Foreign Legion.
crazy_craig	sells your house on Ebay.
domocles	TPs your head.
erik3k	shaves your car.
kiki_chan78	eggs your dog.
naniris	legally changes your name to MoonBeam Cappa.
prometeo_xxi	glues your kidneys to your bedroom ceiling.
xtremeroswellia	smiles. All the time.
Prank Me

me...a tengu? i think it may be right

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 19:35:23 GMT

What Legendary Japanese Monster Are You? by kumauru
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Element
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um.. lets see if i get the hang of this

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 21:22:38 GMT

well, i havent used this journal very much and im not really acostumed to writting things down,but i was given a friendly sugestion to getting in to the habit of writting more here so as to keep my sanity. I've never been really into writting in journals ( physical or otherwise) since i'm a bit paranoid and i really dont trust family members not browsing through my stuff to see what they see. Its not that my family is bad or anything, but they sure do know how to push my buttons in order to tick me off. I know they love me but i doubt or question it sometimes. And though i feel like saying fuck off many times a week, i cant , because i have this tendency to consider their feelings, health and wants before me. Also experience have shown that my family is not good in handling mental health and emotional health issues.
But lately i wish i didn't have to think like a parent. I wish to be able to say all the shit that has come my way in the last year and in the last years how much i HAVENT dealt with my issues and how this is hurting me more than helping me. This is the reason why earlier on a post that was deleted by my bro, i made reference to the fact i was paying for my psycologist. I was because i know that it would have required my parents to deal with somethings they dont. SO i cut them out of the picture. I know they would help me pay but then i would also be constantly analyzed by my mom , who happends to be a sells representative for a medicine for schizophrenia and other menatl disorders. SO I wanted to deal with it on my own since my issues are only of me mostly. Now she choice to work at a famous hospital and now am on my own again. I like her for she gave me tools to solve some in the now problems and gave me space to open up. I have good friends and they have been supportive , but i feel i have imposed my issue too much on them and may be even created a dependency for their being around to feel safe, and like if something would go wrong i would not be alone. but in doing so i may get them tired of me too early. I may just be suffocating them and they being too polite to tell me. It's not that i dont trust or believe what they saying is true, but i have been forgotten by many people whom i had thought to be my friends, and lets just sum it up as that my social relationships so far has resulted in inevitable ditching and forgetting of loser mua. Right now, i have no control , and i hate this feeling. So many things that i dont even feel confortable writting here for it would require accepting somethings of myself i dont really feel ready to just yet.
forgive me friended friends, for i do not know how to do an Lj cut and i just needed to try taking things of my chest and if i feel confortable continuin. I really need an outlet for not having one is making me sick, really.As in low immune bacteria target walking about in the university. Well i have to go know. I ll keep writting later.

this is cool

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 18:26:54 GMT

You Are a Henna Gaijin!

You're not Japanese, but you wish you were!
You can use chopsticks with your eyes closed, and you've memorized hundreds of Kanji.
You even answer your phone "moshi moshi."
While the number of anime videos you've seen is way higher than the number of dates you've been on, there's hope.
Play the sexy, mysterous gaijin, and you'll have plenty of Japanese meat.

What's Your Japanese Subculture?

me.. fine arts? i thinks this quizz needs twiking

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 18:23:51 GMT

You Should Get a MFA (Masters of Fine Arts)

You're a blooming artistic talent, even if you aren't quite convinced.
You'd make an incredible artist, photographer, or film maker.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

my inner child

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 18:20:32 GMT

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child.
Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.
You cherish all of the details in life.
Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

learn about my walk ;D

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 03:34:17 GMT

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Crazy

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personality profile

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 03:23:45 GMT

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have high neuroticism.
It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.
You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.
You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 04:53:23 GMT

After you die...
Heaven

After death, you will exist in heaven. Everything and everyone you love will constantly surround you for all of eternity. You lucky scoundrel.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

survey, just a little bored

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 13:32:09 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	vanessa
Birthday:	april 12/1984
Birthplace:	mayaguez
Current Location:	puerto rico
Eye Color:	dark brown
Hair Color:	black
Height:	5feet 4 inches
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right but i write with both
Your Heritage:	no clue
The Shoes You Wore Today:	tennis shoes.... the best to wear
Your Weakness:	tickles
Your Fears:	not wanting to live
Your Perfect Pizza:	Peperony, sausage, tomatoe and pepers
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	loose o dress size
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	^-^
Thoughts First Waking Up:	no! goaway stupid sun, too early!
Your Best Physical Feature:	face
Your Bedtime:	dont have one
Your Most Missed Memory:	childhood, cant remember my childhood very well
Pepsi or Coke:	diet pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	neither... wendy's
Single or Group Dates:	either one
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	none , not real teas
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	COFFEE
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	oh.. YEAH
Do you Sing:	sometimes
Do you Shower Daily:	yes! its a must
Have you Been in Love:	dont think so
Do you want to go to College:	currently studying
Do you want to get Married:	yes, but after like im 27 or 30something
Do you belive in yourself:	of course
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	no
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	love em
Do you play an Instrument:	no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	caffeine counts right?
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no :<
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no, but would like to if im in good company;D
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	no
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	yes
Ever Shoplifted:	yes, but only once in a dare
How do you want to Die:	fast and painless
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Itraveler ... if only that could be aprofession
What country would you most like to Visit:	japan
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	dark brown.. more mistery in them
Favourite Hair Color:	dark black, but any color is fine with me ;D
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	taller than me
Weight:	why should it matter....
Best Clothing Style:	original, your own
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none
Number of CDs I own:	200+
Number of Piercings:	noneallergic to all metals and plastic
Number of Tattoos:	none, but i would like one or two
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	two things most of all
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 17:31:49 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In July I gave kiki_chan78 a life-saving blood transfusion (50 points). In June I gave azrael_blade a kidney (1000 points). In August I ruled Iran as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points). Last Thursday I helped crazy_craig see the light (8 points). Last Sunday on a flight to Colorado Springs, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points).

Overall, I've been nice (1718 points). For Christmas I deserve a red Radio-Flyer wagon!

Sincerely,
ragtavab

i'm a nerd ! I'm a nerd!

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 00:04:11 GMT

something may be wrong... mindless ranting

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 07:49:34 GMT

I'm not sure i'm alright , you see. My mom gave our dog away cause we did not dedicate the time chispie needed. And ying her up so she would not run about carelessly was also cruel in our way of viewing a doggie life. She was with u s for 4 years and suddenly i'm remembered why i have attachement issues. I feel like a part of me is missing. Cracks once repair of my shattered soul have yet again been reopened . And as to put more uneasynees and caos in my mind , I've been sick, things going wako with my body and all test seem to show I am the picture of health. Sometimes i question my own aches and pain and whether i really am coughing from a bad cold or is it just my imagination. It's not that i am upset i am healthy but rather that it makes me look like a hypocondriac. That i've gotten to a point that no matter how sick i feel i have to question my ownself if im lying to myself and everyone. ANd the fact that the only being i had the confidence to curl up with when i feel like this is gone yet i feel what can be discribed as blahness. i conclude that something is wrong within myself and decide to go to bed , for tomorrow is yet another day for me to be told nothing is wrong though i bleed for 13 days and have those days of the month up to 3 times a month. I guess soon i will be sent to a looney ville as to be with pears

sorry for my non spanish speaking friends . I will translate and post it later

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 05:15:48 GMT

BENEFICIOS DEL SEXO

Tienes que leer esto. Es entretenido! Asegúrate de leer la observación al
final.
Sabias que se puede determinar si una persona es o no activa sexualmente
por el aspecto de su piel?
1. El sexo es un tratamiento de belleza. Pruebas científicas han comprobado
que cuando la mujer tiene relaciones produce gran cantidad de estrógeno, lo
que vuelve el pelo brillante y suave.
2. Hacer el amor suave y relajadamente reduce las posibilidades de sufrir
dermatitis, espinillas y acné.El sudor producido limpia los poros y hace
brillar tu piel.
3. Hacer el amor quema todas esas calorías que acumulaste en esa cena
romántica.....
4. El sexo es uno de los
deportes más seguros. Fortalece y tonifica casi
todos los músculos del cuerpo. Es más agradable que nadar 20 vueltas, y no
necesitas zapatillas especiales!
5. El sexo es una cura instantánea para la depresión. Libera endorfinas en
el fujo sanguíneo, creando un estado de euforia y dejándote con un
sentimiento de bienestar.
6. Mientras más sexo tengas más posibilidades tienes de tener más. Un
cuerpo activo sexualmente contiene mayor cantidad de feromonas. Este sutil
aroma exita al sexo opuesto!
7. El sexo es el tranquilizante más seguro del mundo. ES 10 VECES MÁS
EFECTIVO QUE EL VALIUM.
8. Besarse todos los días permite alejarse del dentista. Los besos ayudan a
la saliva a limpiar los dientes y disminuye la cantidad de ácido que causa
el debilitamiento del esmalte.
9. El sexo
alivia los dolores de cabeza. Cada vez que haces el amor se
alivia la tensión de las venas del cerebro.
10. Hacer mucho el amor puede despejar una congestión nasal. El sexo es un
antihistamínico natural. Ayuda a combatir el asma y las alergias de
primavera.
El "Hada del Sexo" te visitará en cuatro días desde que hayas recibido esta
carta, siempre y cuando tu la hagas circular. Si no lo haces, entonces nunca
tendrás buenas relaciones sexuales por el resto de tu vida. Quedarás célibe
y tus genitales se pudrirán y caerán.
Esto no es una broma! Envía copias a quienes necesiten sexo
(¿quién no?).
No envíes dinero, pues el destino de tus genitales no tiene precio.

me blue. me rant

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 22:00:58 GMT

in the dreary night
i loose all might
for i have a monkey
that will not give me the key
to my actual freedom
and likes to torture in its absolute boredom.
he only appears
to whisper in my ears
in an attempt to kill
for me to jump from the ledge of the hill.
I, tourmented, trudge through the day
hoping to find my way,
to be absolutely free.
But my monkey wont leave
he follows, in reminder of my confinement
and to all this i cannot vocalize my lament
cause their is only air to listen

misa dracula yaay ^-^

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 02:55:11 GMT

You scored as Dracula. You are the smooth sexy cool Dracula. Patient and lustful. If you were any cooler youd be ice. Great style with a way of seducing those around you. And three brides who wouldn't want to be him.

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Armand

100%

Marius

100%

Angel

100%

Dracula

100%

Spike

83%

Blade

67%

Lestat

67%

Deacon Frost

58%

Louis

33%

Akasha

33%

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haiku^-^

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 18:57:49 GMT

colors brushed above
like paintings in my abode
decor and brings peace

just trying this out ^_-

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 13:01:51 GMT

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 12:53:57 GMT

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

sulking * turns into tazmanian devil* ^-^ just ranting here

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 22:32:33 GMT

spinnig about in a twiste room
i bend& twist like a contortionist
in hope to avoid my doom
though i think i'm being too optimistic.

i make my way
through the maze that my family lays
i twit , jump and perié
though the girl they knew & me are no longer the same.
they request adn I obey
adn when i'm covered with mud and and hay
as i trip and fall, tumbling down
trought hte twisted loops of life, to which i'm bound
they mock and humiliate me, then ask for more

have you ever seen me before?
do you even care? do you even love?
why you have less pride in me , than you would a whore?
why do i rarely know your embrace
why you seek i reach the sky above
and to win every imaginary race.

I'm never good enough am i?
am i really this terrible monster that needs to hide?
all you ever say are the things gone bad
and then request i never get mad.
I am mad, crazy in a dreary dilusion
that this is were i belong.
Were i only can concieve my destruction
and loose all hope t be longed for
to be desired and be shown affection.
Dont say you are my family
for there was more love in ther horros of AMITY
than in your hearts towards me.
YOu my family? how can this be?

the end

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