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Saturday, June 28th, 2008
10:26 am	hello everybody ^0^! long time no read! I know , I know.. I've been a bit busy lately. Well , I doing great. I have my own apartment, which comes with pool facilities at a great price >.< who said you can't have it all. It's really big and the only thing I dont get accustomed to here is all the carpeting.I'm starting to miss puerto rico weather. It's hot here but it's muggy and dusty since we are having a drought. All right, Have i told you i,m in columbus georgia now? >.< I know I have a tendency to keep moving... But I think I'll be settling here for a while. I got a great job and I find funny I have to maintain my voice like a singer does.I really like my job, I get to help people out and it's a learning experience. I'm a customer service representative for TSYS (Total systems inc.) My job involves redeeming point for prices from credit card companys. And its really interesting. So.... if you have a credit card with rewards program... and since you have internet... use the website. I can't redeem for you, It would mean loosing the gig and I dont plan on loosing the gig. But do check your rewards program out, they have cool stuff. It's kinda of a meanie job as well for i have internet acces but i can't use it even on the slow days... only for redemption purposes only... but hey you can't have the cake and eat it too. The work enviroment is really friendly and well looks like luck is on my side.I got also an upper hand since i'm bilingual and we barely have spanish representatives. Other than work, I've become a dull gal, since I'm all work and no play these days. Well, I got to make sure on my own two feet before I can splurge on hanging out. It's not like you can hang for free now a days unless its to the library, which i go to quite often.and FINALLY I have dsl... i can actually talk to peoples now! I had dialup before and was so slow i couldn't even open my email...lol.Well, pardon the spelling errors I'm abit tired to correct them at the time and I will write more often now. I can't write more, for I have duties to attend to aka bills to pay. Well i hope you all are ok, let me know what is new with you? how is life treating you? what are your plans in these coming days and well all that good stuff so I can catch up with your lifes as well. * offer e-flower* sorry I haven't been keeping in touch better. But I promise I will now :D Well i hope you have a good day take care Current Mood: complacent (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 19th, 2008
1:40 pm	life down south Life down south... its very different. All with little boundaries and lots of codes adn upright living stuff. Everywhere is like working on a boot camp. This is sooo not like me. But I'm doing more than ok. Im living in a nice neighborhood. Dont have internet... but its a work in progres XD. I like my job. Im a CSR ( customer service representative). It's not all fun and games though. Its stressful and also has its times where there is nothing to do but you cant do nothing but stare at the screen . My peers are cool. They celebrated my birthday on friday 11 and we had pizza and cup cakes and we had soda and good times. ^-^ and sadly fast times as well for we only have 30min breaks during training. Its an okay town to settle down in here in Columbus. I do miss the city like feel. I like the metro and fast life feel. I guess i can later look forward to Atlanta or some other metro for further setting down my roots somewhere. Im letting my hair grow out, so it fits better to dress code and its more manageable. O.O and OMG Im dressing like a business woman >.< can you imagine that. Me wearing make-up, eye liner, eye shodow, blush, base , lipstick and lip liner, french manecure i learned to do on myself and fine pluck brows. Those who really know me know that i soooo do not like doing that and barely knew how , but desperate times calls for desperate measures. :P Not much friends yet, but i keep in touch with my friends from home, Rafa, Yome and chibi. I've been in comunications with my family.. we had had a fight a while back and well, that is water under the bridge now. ON mutual agreement we dont touch the subject and we are back to are usual selves :D. My granma is more likely than not going to come an visit me this summer. I cant really go to my graduation :( but .... its no big deal. Any who... she and maybe some other family will be coming to visit me... who exactly still undetermined. People say family is always family , right? Well they arent always easy to understand, but they are family and care none the less. And friends are good too, I wish i could make friends in a flash and already have friends . I guess im in patient . Need to learn that. I have been here less than 2 months here and so its not enough time and ive only been working for three weeks so not enough time to get to know people and be friends per say. There is another puerto rican in the Loyalty department. ^-^ that is nice to know ji ji ji. And the weather here is great... Im going a bit paranoid with the tornado warnings being so close to home but so far we are in a place tornados dont fancy :P so we good. One thing for sure , in P.R. we only worry about storms regurlar rainstroms... in the states there are alot of weather inclemencies to watch out for @_@ can be overwhelming sometimes I imagine.I'm proud of myself. I have been doing good, I have survived many set backs in the last year to two years. Im of excelent health and Im making it. its not easy , maybe not going to be too confortable in the days to come... but one thing is for sure... i will survive. I will move on and carry my head on high. man I got to go.. maybe i ll update more often. Maybe take the habit of documenting my life.....someday someone might see its book worthyness and make it into a book.There are tings i regret, somethings im starting to see where for the best and some im most definetly proud off and wouldnt mind having a book written on int. ji ji ja ja ja ja ja ... like that would ever happen LOL Current Mood: pensive (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 11th, 2007
10:47 pm	its been some time... Its been somtime! ^-^; well i have had a busy semester in college. I passed all my clases. 3 B's and 2 C's and i cant be happier^-^ those were the most worked for grades yet. My family is still being an ass, friends are good as always, a bit more caotic, but hey arent we all. I have found love and have grown so much since my last post. I had to post ,though i dont have much time to, because that last post was kinda a sad post to let it be the last one in a while . I will write more often but, for now that will be all. Current Mood: sleepy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 20th, 2006
1:01 pm	mindless ranting from a broken woman i would not go as far as to say my live sucks. I do believe i have the lousiest luck any one could have. I m still broken up about losing two friends last week, but know i get more shit thrown my way. I am right now in the most self hating moment of my life. I let a man who had hurt me so much in the past, do what he pleased. I did not care for myself. I guess in a way i wanted to commit a slow suicide. Now i'm broken up because i acted the way i did. I feel disgust whith myself and its so fucking hard to look into my friends eyes and not think if they were to know, they would abandon me, they would run away like everyone else in my life, with the exception of my three people until now: my mom, granma and aunt candy. I have one good friend i have told and even though she is not abandoning me , she is disappointed. I betrayed her opinion of me and i let her down. I said i was one thing and ended being completly different. A real hipocrite if you can believe. I wish i could fall asleep and never wake up. I wish i could let out all i feel inside, but i cant. I feel restricted by a part of me. Its like if i where to let everything out and allow myself to fall into pieces i would have to accept what has happened. But if i dont , i can still deny its effects on my. This somehow seems like what i want to accept, that im not the person whom i have recently shown o be. that all is well and it was a dream or an ilusion. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: bring me back to life (6 Comments |Comment on this)
12:54 pm	Holy week sucks ( Read more... ) Current Mood: sad Current Music: ballads of fallen angels (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 7th, 2006
9:06 am	april fools a little late ha ha ha this is hilarious! April Fool aoshishinomori enlists you in the French Foreign Legion. crazy_craig sells your house on Ebay. domocles TPs your head. erik3k shaves your car. kiki_chan78 eggs your dog. naniris legally changes your name to MoonBeam Cappa. prometeo_xxi glues your kidneys to your bedroom ceiling. xtremeroswellia smiles. All the time. Prank Me Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: jazz (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 29th, 2006
3:35 pm	me...a tengu? i think it may be right What Legendary Japanese Monster Are You? by kumauru User Name Element FireWaterEarthWindFogWoodClayMetalVoid Quote You are... Quiz created with MemeGen! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
5:25 pm	um.. lets see if i get the hang of this well, i havent used this journal very much and im not really acostumed to writting things down,but i was given a friendly sugestion to getting in to the habit of writting more here so as to keep my sanity. I've never been really into writting in journals ( physical or otherwise) since i'm a bit paranoid and i really dont trust family members not browsing through my stuff to see what they see.( mindless rantings ) Current Mood: and annoyed Current Music: lilium-elfen leid (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 5th, 2006
1:26 pm	this is cool You Are a Henna Gaijin! You're not Japanese, but you wish you were! You can use chopsticks with your eyes closed, and you've memorized hundreds of Kanji. You even answer your phone "moshi moshi." While the number of anime videos you've seen is way higher than the number of dates you've been on, there's hope. Play the sexy, mysterous gaijin, and you'll have plenty of Japanese meat. What's Your Japanese Subculture? (7 Comments |Comment on this)
1:22 pm	me.. fine arts? i thinks this quizz needs twiking You Should Get a MFA (Masters of Fine Arts) You're a blooming artistic talent, even if you aren't quite convinced. You'd make an incredible artist, photographer, or film maker. What Advanced Degree Should You Get? (Comment on this)
1:20 pm	my inner child Your Inner Child Is Surprised You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things. How Is Your Inner Child? (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 4th, 2006
10:33 pm	learn about my walk ;D <td align="center">Your walk is: Crazy Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td> Current Mood: geeky Current Music: thriller (Comment on this)
10:18 pm	personality profile Your Five Factor Personality Profile Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have high neuroticism. It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed. You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully. You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything. The Five Factor Personality Test Current Mood: dorky Current Music: every step you take-sting & the police (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
11:52 pm	After you die... Heaven After death, you will exist in heaven. Everything and everyone you love will constantly surround you for all of eternity. You lucky scoundrel. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com Current Mood: cynical (1 Comment |Comment on this)
10:32 am	survey, just a little bored TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey Name: vanessa Birthday: april 12/1984 Birthplace: mayaguez Current Location: puerto rico Eye Color: dark brown Hair Color: black Height: 5feet 4 inches Right Handed or Left Handed: right but i write with both Your Heritage: no clue The Shoes You Wore Today: tennis shoes.... the best to wear Your Weakness: tickles Your Fears: not wanting to live Your Perfect Pizza: Peperony, sausage, tomatoe and pepers Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: loose o dress size Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: ^-^ Thoughts First Waking Up: no! goaway stupid sun, too early! Your Best Physical Feature: face Your Bedtime: dont have one Your Most Missed Memory: childhood, cant remember my childhood very well Pepsi or Coke: diet pepsi MacDonalds or Burger King: neither... wendy's Single or Group Dates: either one Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: none , not real teas Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate Cappuccino or Coffee: COFFEE Do you Smoke: no Do you Swear: oh.. YEAH Do you Sing: sometimes Do you Shower Daily: yes! its a must Have you Been in Love: dont think so Do you want to go to College: currently studying Do you want to get Married: yes, but after like im 27 or 30something Do you belive in yourself: of course Do you get Motion Sickness: no Do you think you are Attractive: no Are you a Health Freak: no Do you get along with your Parents: yes Do you like Thunderstorms: love em Do you play an Instrument: no In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no In the past month have you Smoked: no In the past month have you been on Drugs: caffeine counts right? In the past month have you gone on a Date: no :< In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes In the past month have you been on Stage: no In the past month have you been Dumped: no In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no, but would like to if im in good company;D In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no Ever been Drunk: no Ever been called a Tease: yes Ever been Beaten up: yes Ever Shoplifted: yes, but only once in a dare How do you want to Die: fast and painless What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Itraveler ... if only that could be aprofession What country would you most like to Visit: japan In a Boy/Girl.. Favourite Eye Color: dark brown.. more mistery in them Favourite Hair Color: dark black, but any color is fine with me ;D Short or Long Hair: short Height: taller than me Weight: why should it matter.... Best Clothing Style: original, your own Number of Drugs I have taken: none Number of CDs I own: 200+ Number of Piercings: noneallergic to all metals and plastic Number of Tattoos: none, but i would like one or two Number of things in my Past I Regret: two things most of all CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS! Current Mood: bad mood (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 25th, 2005
12:31 pm	Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In July I gave kiki_chan78 a life-saving blood transfusion (50 points). In June I gave azrael_blade a kidney (1000 points). In August I ruled Iran as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points). Last Thursday I helped crazy_craig see the light (8 points). Last Sunday on a flight to Colorado Springs, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points). Overall, I've been nice (1718 points). For Christmas I deserve a red Radio-Flyer wagon! Sincerely, ragtavab Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username: (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
7:03 pm	i'm a nerd ! I'm a nerd! Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: boys are back in town (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 16th, 2005
2:37 am	something may be wrong... mindless ranting I'm not sure i'm alright , you see. My mom gave our dog away cause we did not dedicate the time chispie needed. And ying her up so she would not run about carelessly was also cruel in our way of viewing a doggie life. She was with u s for 4 years and suddenly i'm remembered why i have attachement issues. I feel like a part of me is missing. Cracks once repair of my shattered soul have yet again been reopened . And as to put more uneasynees and caos in my mind , I've been sick, things going wako with my body and all test seem to show I am the picture of health. Sometimes i question my own aches and pain and whether i really am coughing from a bad cold or is it just my imagination. It's not that i am upset i am healthy but rather that it makes me look like a hypocondriac. That i've gotten to a point that no matter how sick i feel i have to question my ownself if im lying to myself and everyone. ANd the fact that the only being i had the confidence to curl up with when i feel like this is gone yet i feel what can be discribed as blahness. i conclude that something is wrong within myself and decide to go to bed , for tomorrow is yet another day for me to be told nothing is wrong though i bleed for 13 days and have those days of the month up to 3 times a month. I guess soon i will be sent to a looney ville as to be with pears Current Mood: distrout Current Music: bring me to life-evanescence (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 26th, 2005
1:15 am	sorry for my non spanish speaking friends . I will translate and post it later BENEFICIOS DEL SEXO Tienes que leer esto. Es entretenido! Asegúrate de leer la observación al final. Sabias que se puede determinar si una persona es o no activa sexualmente por el aspecto de su piel? 1. El sexo es un tratamiento de belleza. Pruebas científicas han comprobado que cuando la mujer tiene relaciones produce gran cantidad de estrógeno, lo que vuelve el pelo brillante y suave. 2. Hacer el amor suave y relajadamente reduce las posibilidades de sufrir dermatitis, espinillas y acné.El sudor producido limpia los poros y hace brillar tu piel. 3. Hacer el amor quema todas esas calorías que acumulaste en esa cena romántica..... 4. El sexo es uno de los deportes más seguros. Fortalece y tonifica casi todos los músculos del cuerpo. Es más agradable que nadar 20 vueltas, y no necesitas zapatillas especiales! 5. El sexo es una cura instantánea para la depresión. Libera endorfinas en el fujo sanguíneo, creando un estado de euforia y dejándote con un sentimiento de bienestar. 6. Mientras más sexo tengas más posibilidades tienes de tener más. Un cuerpo activo sexualmente contiene mayor cantidad de feromonas. Este sutil aroma exita al sexo opuesto! 7. El sexo es el tranquilizante más seguro del mundo. ES 10 VECES MÁS EFECTIVO QUE EL VALIUM. 8. Besarse todos los días permite alejarse del dentista. Los besos ayudan a la saliva a limpiar los dientes y disminuye la cantidad de ácido que causa el debilitamiento del esmalte. 9. El sexo alivia los dolores de cabeza. Cada vez que haces el amor se alivia la tensión de las venas del cerebro. 10. Hacer mucho el amor puede despejar una congestión nasal. El sexo es un antihistamínico natural. Ayuda a combatir el asma y las alergias de primavera. El "Hada del Sexo" te visitará en cuatro días desde que hayas recibido esta carta, siempre y cuando tu la hagas circular. Si no lo haces, entonces nunca tendrás buenas relaciones sexuales por el resto de tu vida. Quedarás célibe y tus genitales se pudrirán y caerán. Esto no es una broma! Envía copias a quienes necesiten sexo (¿quién no?). No envíes dinero, pues el destino de tus genitales no tiene precio. Current Mood: hyper Current Music: footloose (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 10th, 2005
5:53 pm	me blue. me rant in the dreary night i loose all might for i have a monkey that will not give me the key to my actual freedom and likes to torture in its absolute boredom. he only appears to whisper in my ears in an attempt to kill for me to jump from the ledge of the hill. I, tourmented, trudge through the day hoping to find my way, to be absolutely free. But my monkey wont leave he follows, in reminder of my confinement and to all this i cannot vocalize my lament cause their is only air to listen Current Mood: crappy Current Music: Who want to live for ever -Queen (Comment on this)